first week, DONE

WOW it feels like so long ago i started this blog about being so scared to go work out. WEll week one is over and i feel UHHmazing. I dont know what i would have done without TANTRUM FITNESS. it has changed my life. CLaudia has been amazing, i took almost all her classes this week, and she has motivated me to continue to come in day after day! I dont know how much weight i have lost, (i need to buy a scale)but i know i feel better, i even think i look a little better!!! im excited to continue on this path!!

after my first workout

I did it! i went inside and took the Zumba class. It was awesome. the sweat dripped off. I hadnt worked out in so long so this kicked my butt. Thank you for those who prayed for me. it took everything in me to get out of my car. Then i got a text from my husband saying you can do it i love you! those words gave me the courage i needed to go inside and face my irrational fear of other people. everyone was friendly no one said i was ugly or fat like i strangely feared in my head. They all were there to get fit just like me. I enjoyed this club so much that i went home to nurse Dodger and then went back an hour later for the yoga class. it was so nice to relax and stretch after that high cardio workout i had the hour before. when i got home i was happier and felt healthier. On any other night i would have dug into the mac n cheese and drank a pop. but tonight i ate half an avocado tomatoe and salad mix. with a small bowl of man n cheese. being poor isnt the best when all you have to eat is pasta in the house. so ill try to work on eating what we have but in small portions. I also will be keeping a food journal. all in all it was a great first day and I am truly blessed that my husband is squeeezing this into our already small budget.

Starting line

The lighting for this picture stinks but you get the point. Im starting off at probably a 180lbs. its not going to be easy, fear defiantly takes hold of my life so I pray not only to defeat the weight and health issues in my life but also the fear that holds me back time and time again. I am challenging myself to working out at the local fitness studio 3 times a week. and hopefully more and more as I get stronger healthier happier and of course Dodger gets older. as I'm typing I'm freaking out inside, everything in me is fighting not to go to this Zumba class tonight. Im scared i'll look stupid no one will like me i'll be fatter uglier stupider than all the other woman in there. and my husband says those might all happen but so what! Now if only i can continue to talk myself into going, getting out of my car and actually taking the class. I will leave happier i know it. I will leave feeling prettier strong healthier and in a better mood to come home and take care of my family. I'm going to start praying for strength to overcome this irrational and defeating fear and take a stupid dance class.